Wow it's been some time since my last posting. Well I now have a facebook and I'm really loving it. I found a lot of my friends on it. I've finished my dential work, I've got contacts now and I'm going to school. Other then that nothing is really new for me.

It just keeps going

Okay I'm really tired of going to the dentisit every fricken week!!!! Can we just get this over with already?????? I've honestly lost track of how much I have been in there and I can't even remember most Wednesdays now because of the medication I've been on. (My co-workers keep calling me House because of my pain medication.)

Oh well, right now most of my friends are out of town so I've just been working around the house and playing around with the new computer. I am starting to wonder though if my notebook will ever get fixed or if I should just go and get a new one.

Okay call me crazy, but I can't wait to go to the movies next week to see the new Night of the Museam movie. I love history and it makes it fun in a way. After that I'm planning on going to the science museam after that. There are a few new exhibts there that I'm looking forward to seeing. I'm starting to wonder if I should do a degree in history now because I'm always looking into something or another that happened in the past.

I know I posted in my last post about possibley going to Alaska, well I think it's been canned. I had to rush Tibs back to the vet this week to get some more shots and someone pushed a cart into my car and busted out a turn signal that will most likely cost a ton to get fixed.

Well that's my life right now in a nut shell, nothing exciting, just day to day life.

Fusteration

Ever just wanted to just hit your head on the wall? That is how everything has been over here between trying to plan a trip on my own to having mouth work done (I'm going to get my jaw fixed one day!). I'm trying to set up a trip to see a friend in Alaska and another friend of mine wants to come as well because she is both of our friends, well she dosen't know now if she is able to come or not because of a few things. I only have a short time left to book my flight at a cheeper cost and to get my passport but I'm still waiting on my one friend. (I understand what she is going threw though it's not really her falt things keep changeing back and forth I'm just getting really antcy about everything.) I'm hopeing that everything will work out soon as I know it will in the end.

Now I'm having my mouth worked on. Its been messed up for some time. I have a long way to go before it's to the point that I'm happy with it again but this is a start and the pain is less now. It was discoved that I had puss in one of my teeth that was causeing a lot of the inner bone infectiosn that I was having so I'm going threw a root canal to get that fixed. This part should be done in three weeks thank goodness, but I'm not sure what will be the next step in all this.

I guess I'll leave this blog in a happy note. Tibs, my two year old kitten, has reached his sixed month. Back in October he was only given three days to live with FIP but he is still here today.

Well I know it's been some time since I updated, however, I'm back now. Things have been going crazy around here with some stuff with one of my friends. (However because of legal reasons I will not get into). I have also been very busy helping another friend who is getting married this weekend! I'm very excited for her and wish her the best of luck with her future husband (who also happens to be one of the few guys that I'm not scared stiff of.) I'm going to miss her at work wile she is gone but she will be back in about a weeks time so I'll have time to think of new stuff to prank her on. (She's really going to hate some of us after this is all said and done, but we know she will still love us even though.) As for my love life lets just say lets not go there okay....

Well I have joinned the many people who text. I will ament that I never though that I would love it so much but I do. Between two of my friends my phone never stops, but you know what that is just fine with me. It does help especally with one of them about to move to Alaska which will suck! However if all goes well I might be taking my first trip by myself this summer so I'm really looking forward to that. Where am I'm going? I really have no idea, maybe to Alaska to see said friend, maybe somewhere else up north I really have no idea but I do know that I will be going somewhere this summer just to get away from life and to help me make up my mind of some things.

I'm going back to school!!!!!!!!!!!! Though I will most likely be starting out really slow to help me get back into the pase of things. Next semester I'm going to take a computer class and a horse back riding class so it should be a lot of fun, but I'm not looking forward to the drive because the horse class is at a different place then my normal classes.

Merry Christmas

Well only four more days until Christmas. The gifts are bought and wrapped, everything is settled down here. It has been a rough year with it's ups and downs, but we made it through with about two more weeks left of 08. I have come to one conclusion from this year. No manner what life dose to you it is best to stop for a moment and think. I have learned to enjoy the moments I get of happiness, no manner if it's laughing at some joke a groomer said, or sitting for several hours looking at my fish tank that I redid for the thousand time. Each and every moment that we are giving is a gift and it's best to try to enjoy life. I know that there will be bad times and when they do show, just take a moment and try to work though it. There is always a solution to everything if you put your mind to it. Well I'll try go over more of my holidays later. Maybe one day I'll post some of the crazy stuff I have had happen this year who knows....

Ever noticed that my mind wanders when ever I do this thing??????

How and Why

Why is it so easy to give advice but when the time comes you can't follow your own? How do you decide on something that will effect someone so greatly? This is something that I have been thinking hard and long on for awhile now. I have talked to many people about this but yet I can't make up my mind. What do I really want in my life, how do I want to live my life, what will make me happy and what will hurt me. There is only two answers to my question, my pain. One will keep making someone very happy and the other will hurt someone badly. At times I think that I decided wrong when I started doing this, but then again there was times when I thought that this was the best thing I have ever done. Lately though I have taken to hiding my true feelings and I know that I'm slowly tearing myself apart doing this and that I am never really happy anymore, but I'm scared. What if I stop, and find out that no longer doing this was the wrong thing in my life? I will never get it back. I just don't know anymore, I'm so confused. I know I'll have to decide on what to do with in the next few months or I'll end up tearing myself apart.

How to catch a cake on fire....

First off, for anyone having depression or anything like that get a massage!!!!! That is what I did today and for the first time in four years I was under no stress, nothing to worry me or anything. I feel like a new person. For a nice cheep on go to Massage Envy. It is only 39 dollars for your first one for an hour and it doesn't even feel like it's been an hour when you are done. Say the least I am in love! Starting next month I'll most likely go three times a month because they think that they can help where I injured my back at work. They have also done wonders for my wrists so yeah, I see a new membership coming in my future.

So yeah on to the name of this post. Today was my birthday and like all birthdays you have a cake with candles. Well my mother was holding a lighter and reached up to turn off the light on the computer desk. She knocks some Christmas stuff down and the lighter in her hand as well. The lighter shatters next to the cake that has candles burning. Well.... so say the least there was a very very large wosh of fire. The fire didn't touch the desk but it dose light up some bills laying under the computer screen and as fast as it went up it went out. There is currently bills in the BBQ pit just encase they decide that they are still on fire.

Overall it was a nice birthday. I got that massage from my parents, and 2 DS games and Case Closed from my boyfriend. I also found out that one of my friends have decided to move back in the area so I'll most likely be hearing from her and her sister next week.

Well a little bit more good news, I am looking into get help for my mental problems. We are talking to some to find me to a physocligst and I'll be doing the massage therapy as well. Believe it or not that also helps with mental problems. So I think that I'm well on my way to finding the help I need.